society

seagulls screech


slip
from the madness ~ of your sanity
shift
into the realms ~ own your reality
is
what is you ~ me




click
we open up ~ to nothing
that binds us ~ buttercup




wear
your discarded self ~ polish the clouds
hide
where you try ~ dig them up
churn
stale ~ fearful pride




rooted
in ancestries ~ who is this
you think ~ you see




as you cling
to targets ~ for insanity.

moontunes ~

Has the moon been singing to you this weekend?

She certainly has me, it’s been one of those intense
moontunes.. Saturday evening seen me reaching
for my dried up old tobacco and I haven’t smoked
for 3 year! It was 3 year to the day on 21 August..
I was so pleased with myself last weekend lol.
The old baccy has been on my shelf since
I stopped, cos this time I told myself that if I
wanted a fag I could have one..rather than
imposing lethal restrictions on myself...
which hasn’t worked in the past :)


Whenever I got intense cravings - even a few times
earlier this year - I’ve been satisfied with a deep sniff
from the baccy packet! And then, there was yesterday...
I was so intensely pissed off I got down my old mate
and rolled a wee fag :/ the baccy was so dry I managed
to light it without putting it to my lips.........and I just
sat there feeling a strange mixture of guilt
(even though I wasn’t actually taking a drag)
and pleasure at that grey aroma, as it’s cloudiness
enveloped me : ) Oooh the bliss.........

the whole event - right from pulling out the rizzla
- felt like a rather strange little ritual.


Even though I didn’t take a drag I still inhaled ;)
so have I actually had a fag??

you know what..it doesn’t matter...

It felt so good, and I’ve had no desire since to smoke.

So I’m looking at it as a therapeutic thing.. cleansing...

I did feel a little anxious afterwards, perhaps due to

the old physical addiction receptors charging up..

or perhaps that’s just the natural affect tobacco -

(and it’s mountain of added chemicals)

- has on people generally.. after that initial pleasure..

the anxiety kicks in, and we reach for another one??

Later on, I read this post on mind deep about

The Real Cause of Mental Pain -

When to Meditate and When to Contemplate.

So I sat quietly and took a look inside...

which eventually reduced me to full blown heart-aching

tears... it was strange to feel such relief amid that distress..

I guess, for the acceptance... you know those times,

when, you’re there for someone unconditionally.. giving

them a hug when they need it..  lending your ear -

something, I think, many of us do for others all the

time and yet forget, or don’t know how, to do it

for ourselves - that moment, felt like that is what

I’d truly done for myself for the first time in my life.

Mind didn’t get in the way, sometimes we can be so

critical of ourselves, without really realising the

extent of it.

anywaaay I felt so much better after that release : )

I came across some moon info' today -

can’t remember where :/

- about there being a fierce Aries moon on

Friday and Saturday.. she definitely stirred me up...

and induced me to stand up for, and to, myself in

a very personal..
internal..
kind of way.

Tonight’s (Sunday) moon is in Taurus, I believe, so she’s in

my sun sign.. and she’s comforting and grounding..

and I’ve been quietly doodling...

another moon lady.. she’ll become a lunary card

soon methinks.

sweet dreams...

not quite ~ almost night ~

fear seeps ~ uncurling ~
from the darkness of me
transmuting clarity ~
as is murks angrily

where ?

amid low ~ light ~
unfriendly ~ serenity

to find ?

jewels of the sea
sharing their ~
shimmering dance
for free ~

illusion ~

We begin life with the world presenting itself to us as it is.
Someone - our parents, teachers, analysts - hypnotizes us
to ‘see’ the world and construe it in the ‘right’ way. These
others label the world, attach names and give voices to the
beings and events in it, so that thereafter, we cannot read
the world in any other language or hear it saying other things
to us. The task is to break the hypnotic spell, so that we
become undeaf, unblind and multilingual, thereby letting
the world speak to us in new voices and write all its
possible meanings in the new book of our existence.
Be careful in your choice of hypnotists.


~ Sidney Jourard




photo: Ouarzazate ~ the door of the desert ~ Southern Morocco.

lady lunary ~ handmade card

The Moon~full Rebir~thing

She opens her eyes ~ wide ~ spirals fly
dark spaces alight ~ sprinkling ~ stars drop by
and the moon ~ full ~ ooozes her tune
listening to life ~ earths ~ fatal womb.

Lady lunary and her verse were created in the wee

hours.. under this month’s moon~full light..

hearing moon whispers and feeling delight : )

and today she became a 'lunary card'.

Lunary meaning: ‘honesty‘ - a truth - encouraging trust..

in oneself - in the natural wisdom of the infinite universe.

She has been added to greenwhisper at Misi
card size approx 8 X 6 inch.
as she opens the insert contains her verse…

have a beautiful evening…

handmade cards - more masks

This week, as well as doing some much needed
decluttering at home…

I’ve also indulged in some card making : ) 

The blue one spoken for before it was made.

The other two…

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
have been listed in my little Misi shop…

also been doing some doodling… new designs to turn
into cards over the coming weeks… time allowing… and
as long as I don’t get sidetracked with other doings :-/

Gratitude ~ Unlocks ~

Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life.  It turns what we have into

enough, and more.  It turns denial into acceptance, chaos into order,
confusion into clarity... It turns problems into gifts, failures
into success, the unexpected into perfect timing, and mistakes
into important events.  Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings...
peace for today... and creates a vision for tomorrow.


~ Melodie Beattie
 
 
 
photograph taken at Legzira, near Sidi Ifni - Southwest Morocco
- in January 2010

silence speaks...

‘Make peace with silence, and remind yourself that it is
in this space that you'll come to remember your spirit.
When you're able to transcend an aversion to silence,
you'll also transcend many other miseries.......’

~ Dr. Wayne Dyer

These beautiful little creatures, as well as speaking to us
about transmutation, renewal.. transcendence.. they
remind us to be alone with ourselves to listen to their
gentle requests, that we learn to allow the natural

transformation of things in our lives…
showing, a fine balance.. as they sit.. still..
with silence..

it’s true, isn’t it?
Silence can speak volumes…

Where do you go in times of the darkness.. brought to us
from emotional pain? Do you embrace the stillness..
the silence.. and go within to work through life’s stressors,
or do you hide in among the murk and fill the spaces
with doing and chatter.. anything to avoid a little light
on the situation.. on yourself?

Actually, perhaps it’s not as simple as that??
For all of our sameness we are all so very different at
our core.. and as well as dealing with life’s trials in
our own way, we also embrace different aspects
of ourselves at various times in our lives.. depending
on the situation.. the trial upon us..

What kind of person are you mostly.. how are you most
comfortable with you, and do you notice when you are
out of synch with your’self’?

Personally, I very much lean towards..being quiet..
usually preferring silence.. long luxurious stretches of it,

I like aloneness..doing by myself. I’m most comfortable

this way. But don’t get me wrong.. as with everything

in life there are many aspects to the whole.. I love people

and chatter as much as the next person.. but these times,

for me, very much need to be balanced..
with solitude, or I turn into a shark :-/

Some folks are naturally opposites to this.. and are
wonderful noisy, busy, doing, beings.. and in their times
of troubles they loose their selves by turning in..becoming
that uncomfortable silence.. that darkness we can find
to hide in. We do, all have our own little ways, don’t we?

During recent times, dealing (or not as the case may be)
with the boulders that life has put on my path, and the
personal issues they have raised for me. I have realised
how I sometimes operate under stress.. and why I
eventually turn into that shark lol..

Although while dealing with the situations practicalities,

I have very much been avoiding the silence.. my refreshing..
renewing silence.. Oh yes!. I developed a deep aversion
to it, and filled my space with as much noise and mindless
doings as I possibly could, fear wasn’t going to allow me
to shed too much light on that dark scary space. But, all is
as it should be I think.. time out to allow things to be
absorbed before beginning to process.. a little journey
around life’s circle.. always.. eventually leading..
home to your true self…

We wander through life..

munching away..

dealing with things..




from day to day..

then off we go..

grasping.. to cling.. before..




realising the inevitable.. change.. must begin..

turning within.. seeing.. our truth..

cocooned from illusion.. we get to the root.

finally.. emerging.. for sure..

to ride a fresh cycle.. circle life.. once more..

There is no such thing as messing up.
Only the mind judges that. Whatever
step you take is going to be the right one
since we are here to learn and to grow…….

 

The photographs were taken at http://www.pilipalas.co.uk/ 

Menai Bridge, Anglesey, North Wales.

problems and gifts...

There is no such thing as a problem without
a gift for you in its hands.
You seek problems because you need their gifts

~ Richard Bach ‘Illusions’






Hmmn indeed! My lack of blogging and general creativity this year
is due to problems.. that have surfaced thick and fast one after the
other, some big, some small, the worst by far has been over the
past few months.. brought on by the actions of another..
someone we love very much.. things I can’t go into on here
as it isn’t my story to tell, even though it's very much
enmeshed into our lives. The pain is still there daily, and
it’s something that isn’t going to go away very soon…
so it’s something that I have to learn to live with..
forever ~ although my forever
is nothing compared to their own ~ it still is..!


Flying free on an open breeze..
Viewing life’s unwanted squeeze…





Ponderings.. on my surfacing angers and irritations…
at the judgements and criticisms of others...
what gifts do they have for me ??
Time will tell ~ I have an eternity ~
Patience ~ comes to mind (only) ~ already..
easier said than done!





Jonathan Seagull discovered that boredom and fear and anger
are the reasons that a gull’s life is so short,
and with these gone from his thoughts,
he lived a long fine life indeed.

~ Richard Bach
from ‘Jonathan Livingstone Seagull’ ~






Don't believe what your eyes are telling you.
All they show is limitation.
Look with your understanding,
find out what you already know,
and you'll see the way to fly.

~ Richard Bach
from 'Jonathan Livingstone Seagull' ~





I hope you lovely bloggers are all well and having a good year..
I have been hopping about infrequently trying to pop into
my favourite blogs now and then, when I’ve had the
minutes to spare.. not nearly as often as I’d have liked..
hopefully I will have a little more mind space
and time now, to get back into things…
and already feeling pleasure at the thought of it : )